Tuesday, October 09, 2001

The network's finally back online! Yay! 'twas down the whole day yesterday. Couldn't blog the whole day.

Anyway ...

Didn't do much over the weekend. Sort of stayed home the whole day Saturday except when I went to the mall for a late lunch. Did a little window shopping while I was there as well. I see several items that I'm interested in at the mo. One's a faux leather after the knee length skirt from U2. Nice but the length not too good for me. I short. Wearing that length might make me look even shorter. Next there's the 2 mini's at Topshop. Better length for me but they didn't have my size plus it cost a whopping $109 bucks! Imagine that!

After the mall, just stayed home and watched some movies. I watched 2 movies. The Musketeer and O. I really liked the Musketeer but then I like most movies in that setting plus it had Tim Roth. I think he's a really good actor. Underrated cause he's not gorgeous looking but he's great. Especially when he's a baddie, like when he was in Rob Roy and Hoodlum. He's great as a goodie as well especially in 'The Legend of 1900'. I've seen it numerous times! O's an okay movie. It's a movie I would describe as a movie that's 'just there'. Didn't leave much of an impression. It's not bad but not good at the same time. Just there. Of course, my sister loves it cause she really like Josh Hartnett.

Didn't even want to go out when my friend asked. Friday must have taken a toll. Either Friday or the whole week since last Saturday. Either way, my legs just didn't want to move anymore. So, I vegged out in front of the telly. I don't mind it at all really. I'm a couch potato. Can't sit in front of the telly whole day if there's stuff for me to watch.

Sunday was a day wasted ... wasted like a whole hour searching through the mall looking for my brother. You see, earlier on we had lunch at Dome's and then my sister wanted to look for the new Garbage album ... which I repeatedly told her that wouldn't be out so soon in our godforsaken country! So we went ahead to the CD store and me brother went to look for some computer games. Long story short, we couldn't find the IT center and spent the whole time scouring the mall for my brother. We went back twice to check that his car was still there. The second time we even waited there for 15 minutes. When we went back in to the mall to search again, I found the IT center (finally). Couldn't find him there and went back to the car ... except this time the car's gone. The last search only took 5 minutes! I should have waited at the car like my sister requested. Urgh! We ended up taking a taxi home and arrived just before my brother. After that, nothing much happened. Went for a dance practise with my dance partner and that was it. The goes Sunday.

Monday was a no brainer. Went to work. Network down. No net activity. Choir practise. Back home.

Oh, I'm starting my private dance lessons this Friday. My dance partner wants to enter competitions. He's actually won a novice comp before. I wasn't his partner then though, if you wondering. Will see how that goes.

Hmmm ... I'm down to my last sachet of green tea. Will have to stock up.

Saturday, October 06, 2001

I've just come back from meeting two of my friends whom I met during an introductory musical theatre course. What an amazing meet! Conversation topics included existense, the various types of consciousness, reincarnation and past lives, the recent celebration of the four archangles (Gabriel, Michael, Rapheal & Auriel), tarot card and aura reading. I didn't contribute much to the conversation as I do not have knowledge on these topics but it was incredible listening to both Karen and Grace talk about it.

All the while the were talking, I was asking myself 'why don't I know about these stuff'. It seems interesting, although I do admit that I'm skeptical about these sort of stuff. You can't imagine the number of times I've debated with my Christian friends when they talked to me about things related to Christianity. It's great that they have a belief system? religious belief? that they believe in. I am often told about the great feeling of peace, acceptance, calm that they (the believers) know that God is there watching over them. I think it must feel great to believe. So, am I missing out on something here? Why can't I get this feeling? Why can't I believe? Why do I have to have something tangible to prove that something as intangible as God exist?

Maybe it's because I wasn't brought up with a particular belief system. Both my parents have different beliefs and the did not pressure their children to conform to one or the other. In fact, they don't really teach us much about their beliefs ... although my mom did start talking more about Buddhism a few years ago. My dad is what we call a non-practising Christian. I just never took to the idea of religion and enlightenment and things like that. Don't know why. There's just so much that I just don't agree with all the religion be it Christianity, Islam or Buddhism (this is more of a teaching than a religion but it is categorised as a religion, no?).

Don't know what else to say about that topic. Can't say I know where I'm going with it.

My mind's gone in all directions and I can't put it down to words. There's this whole lot of things that Karen and Grace said about existence, living and self. The thing is, I feel like I'm just existing; not LIVING my life. Day in, day out, I go to work, come back, do stuff that I always do ... routine. There's no purpose, no target, no passion. There's no sense of anything. I don't have directions. I have no plans for the future. Ask me what I'd where I see myself in 5 years time (seems to be a popular question in interviews), truthfully, I'd say I don't know. Some people know exactly where the want to be heading, what they'd like to be doing ... some sort of direction, no matter how vague. I don't! I really don't know! I don't know what I'm doing with my life. NOT A SINGLE CLUE!!!

I'm troubled. Worried.

Friday, October 05, 2001

Oh my! John Cusack's on the telly. He's gorgeous.

Forget that. I'm bummed. My car got scratched. I think it's done by that old guy that 'helped' me park my car. My reasoning behind suspecting him is because I only gave him 50 cent. What was I to do? I was out of change and the next smallest thing I have was $10. I am not rich enough to pay someone $10 for not helping me park. Anyway, he was turning the coin over and over in his fingers for awhile and I watched him do that cause I was afraid he was gonna scratch my car. I finally moved away when he stopped looking at it. I should probably have stayed longer and watch him till he's walked away from my car but I was late for my dance class and so I left when he stopped looking. Darn it! Might have been cheaper now if I'd given him the 10 spot.

So, when I went home, I told my mom all about it. About my car being scratched and who I suspect scratched it. Guess what she said. She said that he probably scratched it cause I was most probably rude to the guy. I was thinking ... what??? I told the guy that I didn't have change! What else was I suppose to do? Go into Mikkie Ds to get change? I was parked right in front of McDs. Bummer!!! I don't know what I expected my mom to say but I didn't think she would say that it was my fault. I mean, my car got scratched, I paid some guy 50 cent and I am to blame for the scratches? I don't get it!

Later, my dad told me that I might probably have to send the car in for overhaul. The car was jerking. It's done this before and we thought that it might have been the gas. The last time it jerked, I finished the remaining gas that I have and refueled in a different station and the jerking was gone. Now my dad says that the engine oil's gone into that water container thing. Don't remember what it's called. Might cost me $2000 bucks for the overhaul!

Can things get worse??? Urgh!!! I'll go to sleep now. Hope I don't get any nightmares tonight but with my luck at the moment, I probably will.

Thursday, October 04, 2001

My name's listed as the winner of the winner of the Russell Watson contest on Elaine's Russell Watson Site. Racheal also mentioned me on her blog. Okay, so, I did tell her about my blog, point is she visited and signed my guestbook.

Thanks Rach.

Ack!!! I just read about this in Racheal's blog! Now I have to retype my blog!

Like I wrote previously, ...

My company's having a community service event. With health checks, eye test, hearing test and blood donation. All this held in the wish to bid for some industry award. Not a very good reason to have such and event, in my humble opinion. In an ideal world, such events would be held with the intention of helping and giving services to the community with no ulterior motives whatsoever but hey! ... this is not an ideal world.

Ouch! Just applied too much pressure on my middle finger where they pricked it for the cholesterol and glucose test. The result indicated that I'm perfectly healthy. Cholesterol level 4.5 - norm is anything below 5. Glucose level 5.2 - norm: 3.6 to 6.3. Blood pressure 111/99mmHg - Normal. Pulse rate 65/min - Normal. Weight of 50kg, height of 1.54m which results in a BMT right smack in the middle of the ideal weight! I am soooo NORMAL!

Anyway, I was 'volunteered' to take care of some old folks from a nearby old folks home. Read again, I was volunteered. I didn't volunteer! I don't normally volunteer for this sort of things. Back in school, if you want to paint a mural, I'd volunteer. If you want some certificates written in caligraphy, I'd volunteer (I was quite good at this, I've even written a few for myself. Kinda weird writing a cert for myself.). Need some crap/stuff for a fund-raising auction, I'd do it. But never ever have I ever had the urge to volunteer something that helps human kind. I'm such a horrible person aren't I? I don't know. Just don't feel like I'm the kind of person to do these sort of things. Some people just love helping other. I am simply not included in that SOME. According to my mom's belief in Karma, what goes around, comes around. So if that holds true, with me not helping my fellow human kind, no one would help me when I do need the help. Hopefully there'll be some kind soul around when I do need help ... but wait! there shouldn't be any kind soul around cause I've not been a kind soul to others. Hmmm ... should I just do good hoping for a repayment of good in time of need? but that's not exactly sincere isn't it? There's the ulterior motive of getting repayment. So, is doing good with an ulterior motive just as doing good just cause you DO do good? I'm sure the receiver will appreciate it but what about ME? Will I feel good knowing I've done something like that for a reason?

My parents would probably say that the way the world works. I once had a 'chat' with them, very rare occurrence this, about JC (my company's Regional Director) who loves playing squash and using my connections with my sister, a national squash player, to maybe gain favor through acquaintance. Y'know like how a lot of underlings starts playing golf just cause their bosses does? I said that if I do get a promotion or anything cause the of that, it's not very RIGHT. Do you think that right? They said, 'Don't be so naive. That's the way it works.' What sort of values does that teach me? Sucking up to the bosses is a good thing? Shouldn't I EARN my promotions through hard work and work results? Whatever happened to all those classes on morals that they taught us in schools? Values that don't apply in the real world? Were they just telling us that these things exist but oops! sorry, if you follow them, you'll never succeed. Maybe that's why the world's so f**ked up!

Okay, take a deep breath Empress, breathe. Will stop for a moment. Need to cool down a bit. I hate these sort of stuff.

Wednesday, October 03, 2001

Ah, my dear readers. It seems that the mystery of the missing database guy has been solved. On Monday, KB was out on emergency leave and when I wrote to tell you about him being MIA on Tuesday, he was actually at home. He overslept. And there dear readers, concludes the mystery of the missing database guy.

Now that he's back to work, my project is almost at completion. Not sure as to whether it is fully complete yet as I left after making sure my part worked. Had to leave early as I had a dinner date with some of my ex-high school friends and I was already half an hour late when I completed my part of the program. Dinner was nice. We had steamboat at a place near my workplace so I was only about 40-45 minutes late. I've asked them to start dinner without me as I didn't know when exacly it was that I'd be finished with my work. Anyway, managed to meet them and have dinner. It was nice.

I also got photos of the abseilling trip that I went with some of the school mates who were at the dinner. Photos came out pretty nicely. Although, there weren't any photos of me or anyone actually hanging halfway on the abseil.

Well, I've finished unzipping my file. I'm making a CD with Russell Watson's songs for my friend Elsie. She's been so nice. She didn't know me and she mailed me a tape of the performance RW had at the Ford Centre for the US President. Sweet of her wasn't it? So, I've searched the net looking for songs by RW that wasn't on his debut and only album (at this moment) and will burn it for her. I've collected 3 songs so far ... funny, I actually thought I had 4. Must have misplaced it in my brother's hard drive ... the burner's on his PC. Will go search for it now. Until the next time.

Tuesday, October 02, 2001

Good news this morning. Just got an email from the organiser of the Russell Watson competition I've entered online at Elaine's Russell Watson Site a few days ago and ... I WON!!! Yay! I've mailed her my address and hopefully the CD (prize) will arrive in a few weeks.

On another note. KB, the database guy, is still missing. It's already 10.10am and he still hasn't checked in for work as yet. Can't really continue with my work until he does.

Monday, October 01, 2001

Hmmm ... everyone's gone home for the day. I have the whole office to myself. Lets blast the CD!

I've had the most horrible weekend! Actually spent half a day on Saturday and the whole day Sunday working! Coding and debugging. Debugging mostly. If you've read my last post, you'd know what I'm talking about. The programs better now but it still needs some tweaking on the database side. KB the database guys is nowhere to be found today. We believe he is on medical leave but that's just speculations. Really need him to come back to work soon though, have to get the program done and handed to the customer by this Wednesday. That's about 2 days max.

Urgh!!! Brain drain! Only had 2 1/2 hours sleep this morning. I must look like a panda right now. Got myself to go home at 7am in the morning. Told TL (co-worker) that there's no way I'll be on time for work today. Work starts at 8.30am. If they're gonna take the hours I'm late today out of my annual leave, there's nothing I can do about it. Fortunately, hardly anyone's in the office today. Don't know where everyone's dissappeared to. I know at least Marina's gone to UK but my senior, Adam and Danny, another co-worker's nowhere to be seen. Seems that it's the case as well in our other office. Quiet ... but that's partly because KB's not there (he's a big guy with a booming voice.) ;o)

I've to go to IKEA for more curtain brackets after this. Couldn't decide how many to get on Saturday cause I wasn't sure whether I needed 2/3/4 brackets. Bought the minimum (2 brackets), 2 rod ends and 2 140mm rods. My window's 215 from one end to another, the longest rod they have is 200mm but they have a connected that allows you to extend rods by joining 2 rods together. Nice feature except the join is not very seamless. In fact, it's really obvious. Plus, if I only use 2 brackets, the connected rods sort of droops in the middle, so I need and extra bracket for support. Boring details huh? Who's gone to bed reading this?

Oh ... it was lantern festival yesterday. Saw a latern procession at the mall with IKEA on Saturday complete with one of those dragon line. I'm not quite sure as to the reason for the festival. I think it goes something like ... Once upon a time in China, the was this dragon that terrorises this village and the villagers thought it's time that they did something about it. Don't remember what they did but it had something to do with lots of light and the moon and that's why Chinese (ethnic group, not nationality) kids carry laterns on latern festivals and moon cakes are served on that day. Moon cake is a cake that comes in various flavours of either lotus seed paste, red beans or green beans coated in a flour made crust. Some even come with salted egg yolk. I don't a fan of moon cake. It's nice and sweet but too sweet for me to partake a large portion like I can a piece of chocolate cake.

I should go now. Still have to go to IKEA for the brackets before heading for choir practise. We're preparing a Christmas program now. One program is called 'The Christmas Chrese'??? Not sure of the spelling. It's about Christmas. The other is a bunch of carols. I've never heard of those carols but we did a really quite run through last week and it sounds really nice for a choir. I really like the second program. We'll be practising the second program tonight I think.

Ciao. Need to go now.

Om my GOD!!!! Finally! After uncountable hours on this seat! Finally got the code working! That teaches me trust the data inserted by my co-worker! Faulty data has caused me to debug my perfectly good codes for the past 6 - 8 hours. I can't debug his codes cause it's in a library and I'm not allowed to change it. Sucks! If you haven't a clue what I'm rambling about, doesn't matter. Just needed to ramble some after so many hours! Look at the time! I'm in the office! On a Sunday!

Arghh!!! Still have more codes to go but this part should be easier. Hopefully I can fake out and MC for tomorrow. Otherwise, nobody talk to me. I'll be in a mood and I'll be kinda DAZED. Me will be zombie on the move. Not a good thing with a presentation of this system tomorrow. Will need some drug. COFFEEEEEEE !!!!

Friday, September 28, 2001

Another day has gone by. Well, most of it anyway. Another day of eye drying coding, hair tearing, mind boggling work day. My eyes are so dry as I type this down. Works not done yet but I have to leave for squash training now. Guess I'll have to come back to work tomorrow! *sniff* *sniff* 'Tis a non working Saturday tomorrow! Seems that my co-worker will be coming in on the usual working hour cause he has to go back to his home town. I've decided to get in whenever I can get myself to wake up and get out of my bed. Hopefully I won't have to see him at work. I don't think I work well with him. We have such differring views on how things should be done and why certain things were done the way they are done. Actually got into an argument yesterday cause he didn't inform me of a change in one of the codes that affects the codes in my files. Says that he had told our senior and that it was that senior's responsibility to inform us. I don't know. Was he right? I just think that everyone should be informed of changes that might affect their work.

Gotta go now. Time for training. After that, I might have to outing with 2 sets of friends. Don't know how I'll go for those. We'll see.

Thursday, September 27, 2001

Darn it! Someone just won the DVD microsystem that I was tracking. One of the radio station is having a competition and there are 50 prizes to be given out ranging from $15,000 to a roll of toilet paper. All you have to do is open 2 doors and if the prizes behind those doors matches, you win the prize. Cool huh? The prizes don't change place either. The same prize is always behind the same door. So, as long as you're attentive and keep track of where everything is, you can get the prize that you choose. There are 100 doors in all.

Nobody's got the $15,000 yet. I'm also tracking a 29" flat screen TV. I've got one door for both these prizes. Now I need to find the other. Wish me luck!

Wednesday, September 26, 2001

Frustrating guy! My co-worker just came over and said 'Have you retried? Why didn't you retry?'. What am I? A mind reader? Was I suppose to know when he's finished his codes and I'm allowed to compile?!?! Urghhh!!! I need to hit something. *smash* *smash* *smash*

I think I'll go home soon before all the monitors are smashed to smitherines (this how you spell it?).


Hello, I thought I'd write a few lines while waiting for my co-worker to correct his codes so all our codes get transferred to the deployment directory. Can do it manually but why do that when I can use the available tool? I just have to be patient and wait. Hmmm ... maybe I'll go play a few rounds of mindsweeper. Ciao.

During lunch, I went to have a look at the towel rack ... it's more of a towel stand than a towel rack, really. My friend agreed that it was the nicest towel stand she's seen so far. Anyway, I went with all the intention of buying ... BUT ... after some consideration didn't. You see, the one on display is actually the last one and I don't really want a display unit. That particular unit anyway. The bottom of the legs were a little dirty. I might have taken it if it wasn't. Why should I pay full price for a 'used' item? It is used isn't it?

I don't know. Are display units considered used items? Or are they new? It clear that after you've bought something and use it for awhile, it's labeled as used ... but what about display units? It hasn't been sold but is/was used for awhile by the shop ... albeit only for display purposes. So, are those items new or are they used?

*Come shake your body baby do that conga* Whoo hoo. Go Gloria!

What a day to start the day. Love that song. Don't you? Gloria Estefan rocks!

Anyway, got back home way tired yesterday. Wanted to login and write a bit yesterday but couldn't get myself to do it. Just plopped on the bed after I got back from squash training and didn't want to move after that. I did get up eventually to have my shower and dinner and then it was back to the bed. And now ... *Morning has broken, like the first morning ...*

Just had a look at yesterday's paper and saw the advertisement for the York 3-in-1 remote control that I've been hearing about in the radio. Couldn't really hear what they call the remote in the radio ad but now I do, thanks to the newpaper ad. It's called 'U-Rule'. With this magical remote, you'd be able to control your lights, fan and air conditioning all with one remote (Vanna White hand motions). Don't know how this magical remote works so I've asked my mom to call up the York person she knows. My sister just bought an air conditoner for her room. I'll be getting one as well and would like the U-Rule remote as well so, we'll see how that goes, eh readers?

As for today, I plan to go to the mall and get a towel rack for my room. I saw one the other day. Quite costly but I like it a lot. Still pondering if I should get it. My heart is going 'Yes, you should.' but my pocket's going 'No, you shouldn't.'.

Monday, September 24, 2001

Lots of things has happened. Just heard that my boss has resigned! Goodness. There sure are a lot of people resigning in this company. I know at least 3 others who will be leaving soon as well. Wonder if I should start applying for new jobs. The market must be really good right now. Maybe some of those people who lost their jobs in NY can come look for some here.

Anyway, remember my dilemma on Friday? Well, I ended up training until 8pm and went to watch the competition later. I was mislead. There really wasn't a competition actually. Just a bunch of people dancing the salsa and then the band members and a judge picked who they liked best. My friend wanted to go cause there's suppose to be a bunch of all-female Aussie dance group that was gonna perform.

He didn't get to watch though. That's the second time he's missed them. He only saw then for a few seconds the last time then came. We had car trouble on the way to The Rouge (venue). The car got overheated. Had to wait for about half on hour for the mechanic to arrive and declare that the car was still driveable with sufficient stops in between. After that we decided to continue on to the hotel since we were already so close. The place was quite packed and pretty good.

Then on Saturday, my dad woke me up to buy paint at 9am. I got in at 3am earlier before finally going to be at 4am so I was really tired ... but, since the paint was for my room, I thought what the heck! Just when we was about to leave the house, it started to rain really heavily so we had to wait till the rain subsides a little before heading out. Waiting for it to stop might have taken another hour or so. Why waste time?

The result of my room ... it is now a very pretty LIGHT LILAC. Sounds nice doesn't it? NOT! I was trying really hard to avoid a 'pretty/girlie' room. Grew up in a room painted in light pink cause my dad thinks it's the color that girls like. Haven't a clue where he get's that from. Therefore, I am not satisfied at all with how my room turned out. I'll just have to live with it for the next few years before a) I get a place of my own and paint it whatever the hell color I want! or b) the time for a new coat of paint comes ... this might take at least 5 years! My sister, brother and his girlfriend all agreed that the red that I painted last week was nicer than this color but hey, not too much I can do when the master of the house dislikes the color. (Maybe I should have had more backbone and insisted that I really wanted RED!) boo hoo ...

Friday, September 21, 2001

wooo hooo ... added a guestbook and counter on my blog. See it? Had my cake as well. Mmmmm ... was delish!

Ooops!!! I'm late for my squash.

*Yawn* Have been feeling sleepy ever since getting back from lunch. Had a really heavy lunch today. A co-worker just got his confirmation and treated us to lunch. Good food = Bad work progress later. Also bought a slice of cake on the way back from lunch. It's Chocolate Fudge. Mmmmm ... yummy but can't eat it right now cause I'm still full from lunch.

Urgh! Have to try and get back to work.

Just got to work. Found a free parking spot just when I was about to give up hope and cruise into the pay parking. Saved me 5 bucks, so that's good. Am kinda on a tight budget this month what with buying new furniture and paint for my new room. :o)

Had my dancing class last nite. Usual stuff. Finished our Silver level samba and will be doing the Paso Doble next week. Some of the people in the dance school will be going to watch a latin dance competition today. I'm wondering if I should go. I have squash training from 7 to 9 tonite ... the competition starts at 10! Not enough time to go home, shower and change to go watch if I attend training. Arghhh!!! Dilemma!

Fuh ... I'm getting light headed with all this decision making on empty stomach. Will go have my breaky now.

Thursday, September 20, 2001

Guess what?!??! Just broke my own speed record in minesweeper. Record currently stands at 124sec. Don't know whether that good or bad. Nobody really compares minesweeper speed do they?

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