Frankly, spending the whole day in a meeting does not a good day make. Not even on a normal working day much less the first work day of the new year. BUT ... that was what I did. The whole day today. Discussing about things that have been discussed about last Friday albeit with more decisions made. Still, I am stuck as to what I am to write for my part of the proposal. Have to go look up some products for my part of the proposal. Quite an impossibility I think considering people don't usually place their product for everyone to sample. Not a lot anyway ... there are some but not a lot. Have to look for that some.
Had a pretty good weekend. Managed to watch Lord of The Rings on Monday. It was excellent! I wanna go watch it again. Kinda have a crush on Legolass right now. He's so perfect. Not a hair out of place the whole time. This, of course, will no doubt pass once I see another cute face in another movie. Haha! But for the time being, he's gorgeous. At least in the as an elf he is.
Spent the whole day yesterday as a couch potato. Something which I haven't had the pleasure to do for a long long long long time. Woke up at 2pm. Had lunch and then just plopped in front of the telly. Watched 'Blackadder', 'Jeepers Creepers', 'Takedown', '10 Things I Hate About You' and finally 'Voyage of the Unicorn' on Hallmark.
Ah! 'twas a blissfull day indeed.
Wednesday, January 02, 2002
Monday, December 31, 2001
My sinus is really acting up today. The whole day I had to go about feeling as if I were about to sneeze. Actual number of sneezes to built-p to sneeze had a ratio of about 1:20. So, you can just imagine me sniffling throughout the day about to blow at any second. Really irritating!
Saw two VCDs tonight. Oh yes! Didn't manage to catch LOTR this afternoon. It was sold out. Anyway, the two movies. One's 'Not Another Teenage Movie' and the other's 'Blow'.
If you ever get tickets to the former, just throw it in the dumpster. It's total crap. It's suppose to be a spoof on teenage movies like how 'Scary Movie' is a spoof on scary movies. Where 'Scary Movie' is crap but really funny, this was just plain crap. I don't have anything else to say except it is crap! CRAP! CRAP! CRAP! How it ever got into the top 10 grossing movies when it opened is just beyond me. Probably people were just curious like I was. Geez! What a waste of my time. If only we could get a refund on time.
Now 'Blow' is a totally different story. I'd recommend it. Really! Not only because the totally gorgeous Johnny Depp is in it but it's got a really great story. A true story. It's the real life story of George Jung, the pioneering drug dealer in US? Or something like that. Either he pioneered it or he was the one who became really really successful with it. What I'm wondering if whether he's such a good person as portrayed in the movie. He seems to be such a nice guy that people keep taking advantage of him. If he is, then I feel kinda sad for the guy, even though his drug trafficking have probably killed countless number of people and not to mention the number of lives destroyed from drug addiction. *Empress recommended movie!
Saw two VCDs tonight. Oh yes! Didn't manage to catch LOTR this afternoon. It was sold out. Anyway, the two movies. One's 'Not Another Teenage Movie' and the other's 'Blow'.
If you ever get tickets to the former, just throw it in the dumpster. It's total crap. It's suppose to be a spoof on teenage movies like how 'Scary Movie' is a spoof on scary movies. Where 'Scary Movie' is crap but really funny, this was just plain crap. I don't have anything else to say except it is crap! CRAP! CRAP! CRAP! How it ever got into the top 10 grossing movies when it opened is just beyond me. Probably people were just curious like I was. Geez! What a waste of my time. If only we could get a refund on time.
Now 'Blow' is a totally different story. I'd recommend it. Really! Not only because the totally gorgeous Johnny Depp is in it but it's got a really great story. A true story. It's the real life story of George Jung, the pioneering drug dealer in US? Or something like that. Either he pioneered it or he was the one who became really really successful with it. What I'm wondering if whether he's such a good person as portrayed in the movie. He seems to be such a nice guy that people keep taking advantage of him. If he is, then I feel kinda sad for the guy, even though his drug trafficking have probably killed countless number of people and not to mention the number of lives destroyed from drug addiction. *Empress recommended movie!
Sunday, December 30, 2001
The day started well enough. Sun was shining after two whole days of gloom. My throat doesn't feel as sore as it did, couldn't even sneeze without it hurting like the devil. It still feels a little scratchy but much better than yesterday. Trish called to ask whether we wanted lunch (it was about 11.30am at that time), so we didn't have to drive out for lunch when I eventually decide to get out of bed. Little did I know that they day will end so badly ...
We meaning all the sibs, my brother, Stef, Trish and I, and also my grandma. Parents went up to Genting yesterday and spent the night there, as usual, nobody was informed of their plan; neither did they call home to inform us at home that they weren't coming home.
Anyway when Trish got home with lunch, a fine meal of Bak Kut Teh, we all ate together, not Trish though cause she ate with Kenneth (her boyfriend) earlier but she was there at the table as well. Everything was great. We ate, we talked, joked, talked about our parents; indeed a rather rare occasion. After that, I escaped from cleaning duty by heading over to Yee Sing's house with Trish. Yee Sing was swimming with Gavin, her little brother, in her little plastic Winnie the Pooh pool on her porch. It was fun playing around with the kids.
When we got home, we started planning our escape from the house before our parents got home. Y'see, the parental unit called earlier while we were having our lunch informing us of their imminent return. Mummy sounded a bit terse so we assumed that they didn't do quite well at the casino. Parents not too companiable after a loss at the casino. The girls had originally planned to watch Lord of the Rings today but I can make the afternoon show as I have to attend my friend's 'open house' at 4pm. It was already 2pm. So the movie outing's post-poned to tonight. Decided to just shower, change and then just hop on the car and decide where to go later.
So I did ... shower and change that is.
After that, went to Stef's room to wait while she gets ready. While there, Trish joined us and we decided to go to Coffee Bean while they wait for Bro who's going for a haircut before they join him for 'Behind Enemy Lines' later when I leave for my 'open house'. Bro agreed.
Parental units got home before we manage to get out of the house. Papa told me I had a couple of mails. One's an invitation from Monash, my old university, to the Monash Open Day on 5th January. The other's from Amazon. Hurrah! My secret santa gift has arrived. Lavay Smith and the Red Hot Skillet Lickers's Everybody's Talkin' Bout Miss Thing! Thanks Chris! I finally get to listen to Lavay Smith. Am litening to it even as I write. It's fantastic.
Anyway, off we go to Coffee Bean and bro to the haircutters.
Had a nice chat with the girls about this and that. Trish suggested that I make a crossword puzzle with local flavour and sell it to the magazines, we've been doing the crossword magazines that Trish bought when she was in Australia for the last few days. Sounded like a pretty good idea although I'm not altogether sure that it hasn't been done before. That and that I'm not entirely great with words enough to make a crossword puzzle but it was still a good idea. Stef brought up that we've not been to Insomnia for quite some time and suggested that we go there tonight. She wanted to play Pictionary there. Trish then suggested that we get a set for ourselves instead of going all the way to Insomnia. By that time, it was already 4pm so I had to go. Bro was gonna pick them up after his haircut so I left with those two planning to purchase Pictorial and skipping the movie cause they'd be eager to start playing.
Azfa's 'open house' was alright. Met some old classmates, chat, laughed ate. The usual when you meet up with old friends and the usual Hari Raya food; ketupat, rendang, nasi minyak, etc. Left about 7pm.
Got home. No sibs in sight or at home. Am informed by mummy that they've gone to MidValley to pick up Renee, bro's girlfriend. Took my new CD to Stef's room, mummy's watching TV in mine, called Stef to check her coordinates and to check whether we're still watching LOTR. Confirmed mummy's info and affirmative to the movie.
Reading and listening to Lavay Smith when Stef came into the room and literally groaned when she heard what was on. Another of her sister's weird music.
We're not going for LOTR anymore. Trish said that papa wanted to watch as well when Stef called her to check the time for the movie.
Trish got home later and we started to play Pictorial. She actually bought it! Only two teams. She and Kenneth, Stef and I. We won! Yay! It was fun except for one part when we almost stopped when Trish kinda said that Kenneth didn't know how to draw, she didn't know what the heck he was drawing and Kenneth retorted "Don't play-lah! You draw everything if you're so good!" Doesn't sound really funny but they were having a disagreement and I don't know why we, Stef, mummy and I, were laughing. I was hoping that it'll sort of lighten the mood a little if they thought we weren't taking it so seriously but Trish made a remake about it. So we stopped laughing. She manage to console Kenneth and so we continued playing.
After we finished the game, we broke for a little snack. Bro and Renee brought home something when they went out for dinner. Started another game after that. Here's were the trouble starts ...
It first started when Trish and I disagreed as to what is suppose to happen when we decide to skip a card (it was decided earlier on that if we do not know what the word meant, we can skip that card and draw a new card). If the first card's an all play card, even though we're not in an all play box on the booard, does it mean that the second card remains an all play? I said that it doesn't. That it depends on whatever's on the second card. In the first game, we played that it would still be an all play ... earlier in the game that is until my brother stopped by and said that it should depend on the second card. I thought we changed it then but I wasn't sure. She was quite sure that we didn't and we went on for a few minutes about that. I finally conceeded that we should play the second card as an all play but she somehow figured that I gave in reluctantly and was moody after that. I really don't mind any way we play it. REALLY! I don't!
This created a sort of tension on the second game. Even Stef asked Trish if she still wanted to continue play cause she's really moody now and was really quite. No extra words. All smiles gone. Only a tolerant facade as a replacement of the joyous one of the first game. I didn't feel much like playing anymore cause she's in a mood. I hate these sort of tension.
I the middle of play, she asked Kenneth to trade place with her. Kenneth was seated across left diagonally from me. I suspect that it had something to do with my spaghetti straps (mummy just had to make a comment on my dressing! *frust*). I didn't feel like changing when mummy commented on my top but I took a throw pillow and placed it in front of me when they traded placed. Hey! So sue me for having breast!
Several cards later, she took a card and then just threw it down. I think Stef just picked it up assuming that it was but I asked Trish if it was. She bit back that it was and that she told Stef that it was. Ack! So untrue. She hasn't opened that treasure filled mouth of hers since that disagreement we had at the start of the game except only to try for an answer when it was her turn.
My temper kinda snapped then. Just one card before this, I'd decided that I was going to beg off after one more card with some excuse cause I just can't stand the tension any longer but her retort was just too much for me at that time. I threw the pillow and stormed away yelling "I'd had enough! I quit! I don't want to play anymore! I know, I'm moody!" (Sounds so childish doesn't it?)
But when I heard her say, "We know!", I just had to turn back and tell her that it was because she wasn't into the game anymore ever since our disagreement. That she was the one who was all moody. Somehow or rather she answered back something about my breast being showing. I don't know why that should be a problem. I wear spaghetti straps lots of times so it's not like it a rare occurence. So my cleavage shows. So what?
"Are you afraid that I'd steal your boyfriend?", I replied. "I saw the way you starred down on him when we accidentally bumped into each other the other time." That was really long ago by the way. Then I don't know what else I said. I was babbling incoherently after that venting my anger.
Volatile aren't I?
Poor Stef, Kenneth and Mummy. Innocent victims of two moody bitches. I later apologised to Kenneth for having to witness the outburst and Stef for spoiling her game. Mummy was just there watching so I don't think there was anything to apologise to her about.
I found my sports top that Trish gave me on the floor outside her room when I went for a shower. Mummy must have mistakenly placed it in her clothes pile.
Now I'm not sure who'll gonna be watching LOTR tomorrow. I really don't think Trish will be there and I hope that she won't cause I can't face her yet. I'm don't think I have anything apologise to her about and she definitely thinks the same so we'd probably be at odds with each other for awhile. We don't really say sorry after an argument and a period of non-speaking we just tend to gradually start speaking again. I'm sure this is the case this time as well.
What a bunch of messed up sisters we are.
We meaning all the sibs, my brother, Stef, Trish and I, and also my grandma. Parents went up to Genting yesterday and spent the night there, as usual, nobody was informed of their plan; neither did they call home to inform us at home that they weren't coming home.
Anyway when Trish got home with lunch, a fine meal of Bak Kut Teh, we all ate together, not Trish though cause she ate with Kenneth (her boyfriend) earlier but she was there at the table as well. Everything was great. We ate, we talked, joked, talked about our parents; indeed a rather rare occasion. After that, I escaped from cleaning duty by heading over to Yee Sing's house with Trish. Yee Sing was swimming with Gavin, her little brother, in her little plastic Winnie the Pooh pool on her porch. It was fun playing around with the kids.
When we got home, we started planning our escape from the house before our parents got home. Y'see, the parental unit called earlier while we were having our lunch informing us of their imminent return. Mummy sounded a bit terse so we assumed that they didn't do quite well at the casino. Parents not too companiable after a loss at the casino. The girls had originally planned to watch Lord of the Rings today but I can make the afternoon show as I have to attend my friend's 'open house' at 4pm. It was already 2pm. So the movie outing's post-poned to tonight. Decided to just shower, change and then just hop on the car and decide where to go later.
So I did ... shower and change that is.
After that, went to Stef's room to wait while she gets ready. While there, Trish joined us and we decided to go to Coffee Bean while they wait for Bro who's going for a haircut before they join him for 'Behind Enemy Lines' later when I leave for my 'open house'. Bro agreed.
Parental units got home before we manage to get out of the house. Papa told me I had a couple of mails. One's an invitation from Monash, my old university, to the Monash Open Day on 5th January. The other's from Amazon. Hurrah! My secret santa gift has arrived. Lavay Smith and the Red Hot Skillet Lickers's Everybody's Talkin' Bout Miss Thing! Thanks Chris! I finally get to listen to Lavay Smith. Am litening to it even as I write. It's fantastic.
Anyway, off we go to Coffee Bean and bro to the haircutters.
Had a nice chat with the girls about this and that. Trish suggested that I make a crossword puzzle with local flavour and sell it to the magazines, we've been doing the crossword magazines that Trish bought when she was in Australia for the last few days. Sounded like a pretty good idea although I'm not altogether sure that it hasn't been done before. That and that I'm not entirely great with words enough to make a crossword puzzle but it was still a good idea. Stef brought up that we've not been to Insomnia for quite some time and suggested that we go there tonight. She wanted to play Pictionary there. Trish then suggested that we get a set for ourselves instead of going all the way to Insomnia. By that time, it was already 4pm so I had to go. Bro was gonna pick them up after his haircut so I left with those two planning to purchase Pictorial and skipping the movie cause they'd be eager to start playing.
Azfa's 'open house' was alright. Met some old classmates, chat, laughed ate. The usual when you meet up with old friends and the usual Hari Raya food; ketupat, rendang, nasi minyak, etc. Left about 7pm.
Got home. No sibs in sight or at home. Am informed by mummy that they've gone to MidValley to pick up Renee, bro's girlfriend. Took my new CD to Stef's room, mummy's watching TV in mine, called Stef to check her coordinates and to check whether we're still watching LOTR. Confirmed mummy's info and affirmative to the movie.
Reading and listening to Lavay Smith when Stef came into the room and literally groaned when she heard what was on. Another of her sister's weird music.
We're not going for LOTR anymore. Trish said that papa wanted to watch as well when Stef called her to check the time for the movie.
Trish got home later and we started to play Pictorial. She actually bought it! Only two teams. She and Kenneth, Stef and I. We won! Yay! It was fun except for one part when we almost stopped when Trish kinda said that Kenneth didn't know how to draw, she didn't know what the heck he was drawing and Kenneth retorted "Don't play-lah! You draw everything if you're so good!" Doesn't sound really funny but they were having a disagreement and I don't know why we, Stef, mummy and I, were laughing. I was hoping that it'll sort of lighten the mood a little if they thought we weren't taking it so seriously but Trish made a remake about it. So we stopped laughing. She manage to console Kenneth and so we continued playing.
After we finished the game, we broke for a little snack. Bro and Renee brought home something when they went out for dinner. Started another game after that. Here's were the trouble starts ...
It first started when Trish and I disagreed as to what is suppose to happen when we decide to skip a card (it was decided earlier on that if we do not know what the word meant, we can skip that card and draw a new card). If the first card's an all play card, even though we're not in an all play box on the booard, does it mean that the second card remains an all play? I said that it doesn't. That it depends on whatever's on the second card. In the first game, we played that it would still be an all play ... earlier in the game that is until my brother stopped by and said that it should depend on the second card. I thought we changed it then but I wasn't sure. She was quite sure that we didn't and we went on for a few minutes about that. I finally conceeded that we should play the second card as an all play but she somehow figured that I gave in reluctantly and was moody after that. I really don't mind any way we play it. REALLY! I don't!
This created a sort of tension on the second game. Even Stef asked Trish if she still wanted to continue play cause she's really moody now and was really quite. No extra words. All smiles gone. Only a tolerant facade as a replacement of the joyous one of the first game. I didn't feel much like playing anymore cause she's in a mood. I hate these sort of tension.
I the middle of play, she asked Kenneth to trade place with her. Kenneth was seated across left diagonally from me. I suspect that it had something to do with my spaghetti straps (mummy just had to make a comment on my dressing! *frust*). I didn't feel like changing when mummy commented on my top but I took a throw pillow and placed it in front of me when they traded placed. Hey! So sue me for having breast!
Several cards later, she took a card and then just threw it down. I think Stef just picked it up assuming that it was but I asked Trish if it was. She bit back that it was and that she told Stef that it was. Ack! So untrue. She hasn't opened that treasure filled mouth of hers since that disagreement we had at the start of the game except only to try for an answer when it was her turn.
My temper kinda snapped then. Just one card before this, I'd decided that I was going to beg off after one more card with some excuse cause I just can't stand the tension any longer but her retort was just too much for me at that time. I threw the pillow and stormed away yelling "I'd had enough! I quit! I don't want to play anymore! I know, I'm moody!" (Sounds so childish doesn't it?)
But when I heard her say, "We know!", I just had to turn back and tell her that it was because she wasn't into the game anymore ever since our disagreement. That she was the one who was all moody. Somehow or rather she answered back something about my breast being showing. I don't know why that should be a problem. I wear spaghetti straps lots of times so it's not like it a rare occurence. So my cleavage shows. So what?
"Are you afraid that I'd steal your boyfriend?", I replied. "I saw the way you starred down on him when we accidentally bumped into each other the other time." That was really long ago by the way. Then I don't know what else I said. I was babbling incoherently after that venting my anger.
Volatile aren't I?
Poor Stef, Kenneth and Mummy. Innocent victims of two moody bitches. I later apologised to Kenneth for having to witness the outburst and Stef for spoiling her game. Mummy was just there watching so I don't think there was anything to apologise to her about.
I found my sports top that Trish gave me on the floor outside her room when I went for a shower. Mummy must have mistakenly placed it in her clothes pile.
Now I'm not sure who'll gonna be watching LOTR tomorrow. I really don't think Trish will be there and I hope that she won't cause I can't face her yet. I'm don't think I have anything apologise to her about and she definitely thinks the same so we'd probably be at odds with each other for awhile. We don't really say sorry after an argument and a period of non-speaking we just tend to gradually start speaking again. I'm sure this is the case this time as well.
What a bunch of messed up sisters we are.
Friday, December 28, 2001
I think I've got Alzheimer's. Yesterday I forgot to lock my car door after getting back from lunch. I'm lucky the car didn't get stolen or my radio stripped ... bad luck for them if they did steal the radio ... doesn't work properly. Then just this afternoon, when I was about to drive back to the office from home after lunch, I think I forgot the hand break. I'm not too sure. It's either I forgot to pull it when I got home or I disengaged it just after I got in the car to drive.
I can't remember things that happened two seconds ago!
Maybe it's the lack of sleep. They were showing 'Scent of a Woman' at 12.30am and I watched it till about 2am. Didn't finish it. Was too sleepy. Couldn't keep my eyes open. And this morning, didn't feel like getting out of bed. The whole day and even now, I feel like a zombie. Kept falling asleep during a little discussion with my colleagues just now.
Darn it! It seems I have to rush for a proposal. Have till next Thursday noontime to finish it. That only gives me one and a half day! I'm off work on Monday. Didn't wanna have the weekend then work on Monday and another day off of Tuesday (new year's!). I'm gonna have the whole stretch. Most probably should do the proposal when I'm at home then but I rarely work at home. Don't work at home unless it's absolutely a last minute thing. Nobody should work at home ... unless, of course, if they work from home or something to that effect.
I can't remember things that happened two seconds ago!
Maybe it's the lack of sleep. They were showing 'Scent of a Woman' at 12.30am and I watched it till about 2am. Didn't finish it. Was too sleepy. Couldn't keep my eyes open. And this morning, didn't feel like getting out of bed. The whole day and even now, I feel like a zombie. Kept falling asleep during a little discussion with my colleagues just now.
Darn it! It seems I have to rush for a proposal. Have till next Thursday noontime to finish it. That only gives me one and a half day! I'm off work on Monday. Didn't wanna have the weekend then work on Monday and another day off of Tuesday (new year's!). I'm gonna have the whole stretch. Most probably should do the proposal when I'm at home then but I rarely work at home. Don't work at home unless it's absolutely a last minute thing. Nobody should work at home ... unless, of course, if they work from home or something to that effect.
Thursday, December 27, 2001
Was going to blog yesterday before heading for bed but blogger was down. Stupid crackers. Leave blogger alone!
Everything seems to be down for me these few days. Couldn't log into Yahoo! Messenger yesterday and I still can't today. I don't know what is wrong with it. Able to retrieve Yahoo! Mail fine. They use they same login information so I don't understand why I can't use Messenger.
Embarassing moment yesterday morning. Got to work. Parked my car and as I was walking towards my yellow office building, a guy went, "Psst! Psst! Excuse me miss but your zip's open."
Ooops! Luckily, he wasn't a colleague. Would have been even more embarassing if it had.
Work was boring.
After work, had coffee with this guy I met at the choir AGM. I think he's interested. I'm not though. I usually don't mind going out for coffee with people after I've determined that they're not psycho ... a friendly coffee that is. No ulterior motives. I'm not good at these things. When someone asks you if you'd like to have coffee, if you answer yes, does it automatically indicate that you're interested? I just assumed that you'd like to have coffee and a bit of a chat. Nothing more. Is that too naive of me?
Plus, is there a polite way of saying no when a guy/girl asked 'Would you like to watch a movie?' or was it more like 'Do you watch movies?' Well, I just kinda stuttered a reply towards the negative. I really don't know how to reply to that question. Saying 'yes I'd like to watch a movie, ...' or 'yes I do watch movies, ...' and end it with ' ... but not with you' just seems a bit harsh. So, is there a polite way of rejecting an invitation like that?
I had a conversation with Mogan and my sis the other day over dinner about something like this. Mogan's wondering about his situation with this girl that he's interested in. They were suppose to meet up for dinner, supposedly just as friends but of course, Mogan likes her and would like to be more than that. She's been postponing the dinner with some excuse or another. Mogans wondering if she's trying to avoid him. He's told her that he's cool if she's not interested in him but she has to tell him that she isn't interested.
For me, if a guy that I'm not interested in asked me out and I know he's interested in more than friendship, I'd just make up some excuse and decline. Hoping that after several times of this invite-decline, that they'll get it and leave me alone. However, if they get the courage enough to ask to be more than friends, I'd tell them that I'm not interested and that all I can offer them is friendship. If they accept that and don't press the issue, I'd be cool to hang out with them. I hang out with guys all the time. Be it solo or in a group. All are welcome as friends.
Just think that there needs to be a certain amount of attraction from my side as well for someone to be my boyfriend. A person might be nice and all but if I'm not attracted to them, what can I do but remain friends? I usually go for looks but I know a guy who some says is quite good looking and I do agree and he's interested ... I think. BUT ... when I hang out with him, I'm not comfortable. There's something about him that I don't like. Can't quite put my finger on it. Maybe it's the cigarette. Maybe it's his attitude. It could be anything or nothing but I just don't feel like I'd like him as a boyfriend. So, I've been doing my evasion routine.
Maybe I'm just setting my standards too high. Shouldn't be so picky. Mom's advise is 'to get a guy who loves you more than you do him.' Sound enough although not particularly romantic is it?
People wonder why I don't have a boyfriend at the grand old age of 24. All I can say is that I don't feel that I'm ready for a relationship. I don't feel mature enough. I don't want to be in a relationship just for the sake of being in a relationship. I want to be in one cause it feels right. Whatever right is.
Idealistic romantic stuff that's probably not possible in the real world ... but it could happen.
A girl can dream.
Everything seems to be down for me these few days. Couldn't log into Yahoo! Messenger yesterday and I still can't today. I don't know what is wrong with it. Able to retrieve Yahoo! Mail fine. They use they same login information so I don't understand why I can't use Messenger.
Embarassing moment yesterday morning. Got to work. Parked my car and as I was walking towards my yellow office building, a guy went, "Psst! Psst! Excuse me miss but your zip's open."
Ooops! Luckily, he wasn't a colleague. Would have been even more embarassing if it had.
Work was boring.
After work, had coffee with this guy I met at the choir AGM. I think he's interested. I'm not though. I usually don't mind going out for coffee with people after I've determined that they're not psycho ... a friendly coffee that is. No ulterior motives. I'm not good at these things. When someone asks you if you'd like to have coffee, if you answer yes, does it automatically indicate that you're interested? I just assumed that you'd like to have coffee and a bit of a chat. Nothing more. Is that too naive of me?
Plus, is there a polite way of saying no when a guy/girl asked 'Would you like to watch a movie?' or was it more like 'Do you watch movies?' Well, I just kinda stuttered a reply towards the negative. I really don't know how to reply to that question. Saying 'yes I'd like to watch a movie, ...' or 'yes I do watch movies, ...' and end it with ' ... but not with you' just seems a bit harsh. So, is there a polite way of rejecting an invitation like that?
I had a conversation with Mogan and my sis the other day over dinner about something like this. Mogan's wondering about his situation with this girl that he's interested in. They were suppose to meet up for dinner, supposedly just as friends but of course, Mogan likes her and would like to be more than that. She's been postponing the dinner with some excuse or another. Mogans wondering if she's trying to avoid him. He's told her that he's cool if she's not interested in him but she has to tell him that she isn't interested.
For me, if a guy that I'm not interested in asked me out and I know he's interested in more than friendship, I'd just make up some excuse and decline. Hoping that after several times of this invite-decline, that they'll get it and leave me alone. However, if they get the courage enough to ask to be more than friends, I'd tell them that I'm not interested and that all I can offer them is friendship. If they accept that and don't press the issue, I'd be cool to hang out with them. I hang out with guys all the time. Be it solo or in a group. All are welcome as friends.
Just think that there needs to be a certain amount of attraction from my side as well for someone to be my boyfriend. A person might be nice and all but if I'm not attracted to them, what can I do but remain friends? I usually go for looks but I know a guy who some says is quite good looking and I do agree and he's interested ... I think. BUT ... when I hang out with him, I'm not comfortable. There's something about him that I don't like. Can't quite put my finger on it. Maybe it's the cigarette. Maybe it's his attitude. It could be anything or nothing but I just don't feel like I'd like him as a boyfriend. So, I've been doing my evasion routine.
Maybe I'm just setting my standards too high. Shouldn't be so picky. Mom's advise is 'to get a guy who loves you more than you do him.' Sound enough although not particularly romantic is it?
People wonder why I don't have a boyfriend at the grand old age of 24. All I can say is that I don't feel that I'm ready for a relationship. I don't feel mature enough. I don't want to be in a relationship just for the sake of being in a relationship. I want to be in one cause it feels right. Whatever right is.
Idealistic romantic stuff that's probably not possible in the real world ... but it could happen.
A girl can dream.
Tuesday, December 25, 2001
I need to go to sleep earlier. On Friday night, I slept at 6am (Saturday morning). Saturday night, again at 6am (Sunday morning). Then Sunday, this one a little earlier, at 3am (Monday morning).
Not that I was doing anything important at all. I was making stars mobile to hang outside my sliding door for christmas deco on Friday and then on Saturday and Sunday, I was just reading. Okay, so, the star mobile thing is excusable cause I wanted to have it up before the carollers came on Saturday night but what's the deal with sleeping late the other two days ... and today!
Tonight, right now, I came on to look for a word for 'Summerhouse' for a crossword puzzle that I'm trying to complete. Actually, I knew the word only that I got the connecting word mispelled. That caused me to looked up the dictionary searching for a non-existance word. Fortunately, manage to find the mistake once I found the definition for 'Summerhouse' in dictionary.com. The word was 'Gazebo' ... I knew that!
Okay, anyway, a bit of recap on what I did since since the last time I posted.
* Birthday dinner ... was quite delicious. Pretty good birthday too although there wasn't any present :(. Mummy got me a chocolate walnut cake (big difference from the 2nd hand sponge cake huh?), I consider that a present and papa paid for dinner so that's another present. Everything feels pretty nice.
* Choir christmas party. Loads of laugh. Fun fun fun all around. Food was good too (tom yum soup was yummy!). Everyone got presents cause everyone had to bring in one present for exchange ... so that was good. Took part in two party games. Won one but couldn't finish the other ... you try finishing a bottle of coke without burping!
* Final Streetvoiz performance for the year. I thought we totally sucked! However, Cris thought we did okay ... so, maybe I just have a different opinion on what's okay. I felt like we were so rushing through everything. I didn't have time to take a breath much less swallow! And the hall was so hot! I was sweating like mad and I had to hold the mic through all 11 songs that we sang ... they had two mics but only one stand ... why's that? I haven't a clue!
* Christmas eve dinner. We had a turkey for christmas dinner for the first time! And it was pretty well done too. Kudos to Trish for cooking the turkey. I was totally stuffed. After that, we started on the crossword puzzle. All sibs were helping out but they each dropped out like flies ... one after another ... till there was only yours truly. Managed to finish it with the help of a little pocket dictionary. Yay! ... I was cheating you say? Nope I don't think so, it's a competition crossword and if it's completed, we can submit it in and win a prize if your entry is drawn from a ballot. I don't think anyone would be foolish enough not to complete the puzzle anyway they can before submitting it, do you?
Okay, that's all for the recap, I have to go wrap three more presents and chuck those under the tree. Ciao.
Not that I was doing anything important at all. I was making stars mobile to hang outside my sliding door for christmas deco on Friday and then on Saturday and Sunday, I was just reading. Okay, so, the star mobile thing is excusable cause I wanted to have it up before the carollers came on Saturday night but what's the deal with sleeping late the other two days ... and today!
Tonight, right now, I came on to look for a word for 'Summerhouse' for a crossword puzzle that I'm trying to complete. Actually, I knew the word only that I got the connecting word mispelled. That caused me to looked up the dictionary searching for a non-existance word. Fortunately, manage to find the mistake once I found the definition for 'Summerhouse' in dictionary.com. The word was 'Gazebo' ... I knew that!
Okay, anyway, a bit of recap on what I did since since the last time I posted.
* Birthday dinner ... was quite delicious. Pretty good birthday too although there wasn't any present :(. Mummy got me a chocolate walnut cake (big difference from the 2nd hand sponge cake huh?), I consider that a present and papa paid for dinner so that's another present. Everything feels pretty nice.
* Choir christmas party. Loads of laugh. Fun fun fun all around. Food was good too (tom yum soup was yummy!). Everyone got presents cause everyone had to bring in one present for exchange ... so that was good. Took part in two party games. Won one but couldn't finish the other ... you try finishing a bottle of coke without burping!
* Final Streetvoiz performance for the year. I thought we totally sucked! However, Cris thought we did okay ... so, maybe I just have a different opinion on what's okay. I felt like we were so rushing through everything. I didn't have time to take a breath much less swallow! And the hall was so hot! I was sweating like mad and I had to hold the mic through all 11 songs that we sang ... they had two mics but only one stand ... why's that? I haven't a clue!
* Christmas eve dinner. We had a turkey for christmas dinner for the first time! And it was pretty well done too. Kudos to Trish for cooking the turkey. I was totally stuffed. After that, we started on the crossword puzzle. All sibs were helping out but they each dropped out like flies ... one after another ... till there was only yours truly. Managed to finish it with the help of a little pocket dictionary. Yay! ... I was cheating you say? Nope I don't think so, it's a competition crossword and if it's completed, we can submit it in and win a prize if your entry is drawn from a ballot. I don't think anyone would be foolish enough not to complete the puzzle anyway they can before submitting it, do you?
Okay, that's all for the recap, I have to go wrap three more presents and chuck those under the tree. Ciao.
Friday, December 21, 2001
I'm getting sick of looking for free host to enable my commenting system. I'll go home later this afternoon and give it one last shot. Somehow, I keep getting the 500 Internal Server Error error. Is there something wrong with the code or is the cgi capability just not activated for new users?!
Anyone with PHP or cgi wanna host lil ol me?
Anyone with PHP or cgi wanna host lil ol me?
Thursday, December 20, 2001
Countdown to two dozen years of life - 1 day to go.
Something interesting from 'The Phil News', the Selangor Phil's newsletter, which I found last night while clearing my choir bag and placing reinforcement rings on my scores.
TOP 10 REASONS FOR BEING AN ALTO
10 You get really good at singing an E flat.
9 You get to sing the same note for 12 consecutive bars.
8 You don't really need to warm up to sing 12 consecutive bars of E flat.
7 If the choir is rough, it's unlikely the altos will be blamed.
6 You have lots of time to chat during soprano solos.
5 You get to pretend that you are better than the sopranos, because everybody knows that women only sing soprano so they don't have to learn to read music.
4 You can sometimes find part-time work singing tenor.
3 Altos get all the great intervals.
2 When the sopranos are holding some outrageously high note at the end of a piece, the altos always get the last words.
1 When the altos miss a note, nobody gets hurt.
TOP 10 REASONS FOR BEING A BASS
10 You don't have to tighten your pants to reach your note.
9 You don't have to worry about a woman stealing your job.
8 Or a pre-adolescent boy.
7 Action heroes are always basses. That is, if they ever sang, they would be basses.
6 You get great memorable lyrics like bop, bop, bop, bop.
5 If the singing job doesn't work out, there's always broadcasting.
4 You never have to learn to read the treble clef.
3 If you get a cold, so what.
2 For fun you can sing at the bottom of your range and fool people into thinking there's an earthquake.
1 If you belch while you're singing, the audience just thinks it's part of the score.
Something interesting from 'The Phil News', the Selangor Phil's newsletter, which I found last night while clearing my choir bag and placing reinforcement rings on my scores.
TOP 10 REASONS FOR BEING AN ALTO
10 You get really good at singing an E flat.
9 You get to sing the same note for 12 consecutive bars.
8 You don't really need to warm up to sing 12 consecutive bars of E flat.
7 If the choir is rough, it's unlikely the altos will be blamed.
6 You have lots of time to chat during soprano solos.
5 You get to pretend that you are better than the sopranos, because everybody knows that women only sing soprano so they don't have to learn to read music.
4 You can sometimes find part-time work singing tenor.
3 Altos get all the great intervals.
2 When the sopranos are holding some outrageously high note at the end of a piece, the altos always get the last words.
1 When the altos miss a note, nobody gets hurt.
TOP 10 REASONS FOR BEING A BASS
10 You don't have to tighten your pants to reach your note.
9 You don't have to worry about a woman stealing your job.
8 Or a pre-adolescent boy.
7 Action heroes are always basses. That is, if they ever sang, they would be basses.
6 You get great memorable lyrics like bop, bop, bop, bop.
5 If the singing job doesn't work out, there's always broadcasting.
4 You never have to learn to read the treble clef.
3 If you get a cold, so what.
2 For fun you can sing at the bottom of your range and fool people into thinking there's an earthquake.
1 If you belch while you're singing, the audience just thinks it's part of the score.
Wednesday, December 19, 2001
Trying to get the dotcomment comment system to work. Registered for two free hosting service and placed the codes in one of them. Still not working yet. Will have to see what is wrong when I get home.
Tis raining now. Should better get going before it starts pouring.
Wish me luck with the comment system. You'll soon be able to blog back again .... MUAHAHAHAHA
Tis raining now. Should better get going before it starts pouring.
Wish me luck with the comment system. You'll soon be able to blog back again .... MUAHAHAHAHA
Tuesday, December 18, 2001
Countdown to two dozen years of life - 3 days to go.
Ooops! Missed yesterday's countdown. Was out watching Spy Game, the movie starring Brad Pitt and Robert Redford, with Stef. Excellent movie. Stef thought it was a little slow but I thought it was great!
Anyhoo ...
Have you ever gone to a shoe shop and requested a shoe in your size or whatever size you were looking for? What does the salesperson tell you when they don't have it? Do they recommend another style of shoe which they do have in the requested size (which I think is appropriate)?
I went to look for the pair of sandals that my grandma's been pestering me about ... yes pestering ... 'Have you bought it yet? Have you bought it yet?', she'd go every morning since I told her that my aunts have left money asking me to get it for her. Well, I finally went yesterday. Found the sandal and asked for a black pair in size 6. The salesperson came back and said, 'No size 6, size 8 can ah?'
I was thinking of course not what would I do with a size 8? But I didn't voice that out. Instead, I asked whether they have it in brown. Same thing, 'No size 6 ... but got size 8'. I went, 'it's okay thanks' and left the shop. All the while wondering why people would offer shoes two size larger than the one I've requested for just cause they have it? Do they think whoever I was buying the shoe for would be able to wear it? If so, why would I ask for the one which was two size smaller in the first place?
Just thought that was a weird way of selling.
Ooops! Missed yesterday's countdown. Was out watching Spy Game, the movie starring Brad Pitt and Robert Redford, with Stef. Excellent movie. Stef thought it was a little slow but I thought it was great!
Anyhoo ...
Have you ever gone to a shoe shop and requested a shoe in your size or whatever size you were looking for? What does the salesperson tell you when they don't have it? Do they recommend another style of shoe which they do have in the requested size (which I think is appropriate)?
I went to look for the pair of sandals that my grandma's been pestering me about ... yes pestering ... 'Have you bought it yet? Have you bought it yet?', she'd go every morning since I told her that my aunts have left money asking me to get it for her. Well, I finally went yesterday. Found the sandal and asked for a black pair in size 6. The salesperson came back and said, 'No size 6, size 8 can ah?'
I was thinking of course not what would I do with a size 8? But I didn't voice that out. Instead, I asked whether they have it in brown. Same thing, 'No size 6 ... but got size 8'. I went, 'it's okay thanks' and left the shop. All the while wondering why people would offer shoes two size larger than the one I've requested for just cause they have it? Do they think whoever I was buying the shoe for would be able to wear it? If so, why would I ask for the one which was two size smaller in the first place?
Just thought that was a weird way of selling.
Sunday, December 16, 2001
Countdown to two dozen years of life - 5 days to go.
Today marks the last day of Streetvoiz's last christmas performance. I'm glad that all the christmas programs are over and done with. It's was tiring work ... now all we have to do is sit back relax, wait for the money to come in and for the Selangor Phil's christmas party the day after me birthday. There is a little thing that some of us from Streetvoiz will do on Sunday after the party. Some children's party at some place ... suppose to get together on Friday to practise some songs for that but Friday's my birthday so I told them I might not be able to attend practise ... I'll try my best. A birthday dinner just won't be a birthday dinner without the birthday girl would it?
I have no idea when the tradition of having a family dinner on someone's birthday started. It sure isn't the norm as I was growing up. I still remember the pandan sponge cake, mom brought back from visiting a friend at the hospital who just gave birth, that was passed off as my birthday cake! How pathetic was that? Anyway, the whole of this year, whenever it's someone's birthday (family member only, of course), we go out and have a family dinner ... not that I'm complaining of course, just that ... it's not the norm! When in the world did we adopt this tradition?
Back to the what I did today stuff ...
Got up so early for a Sunday and couldn't get back to sleep. So, I gathered the two videos that two very kind soul mailed to me to watch them. Thanks Elsie and Nicole. I must have received Elsie's tape like two months ago or so ... just couldn't find the time to pop it in the video to watch ... that and that the vcr's in my parent's room and I don't like watching it with them ... my mom likes to add to the script ... this morning, they were at a cousin's wedding so their room was free and all sibs were still asleep. Hence, the perfect time to indulge in my dose of Russell Watson; that was what was in Elsie's tape. She'd kindly recorded RW's concert at the Taj Mahal (in America not India).
Fabulous concert! And there were duets with Lea Salonga and Natalie Cole. Just yesterday one of the Streetvoiz guys were saying that I should sing Lea Salonga songs while we were bumming and singing while waiting for the technicians to set up the mics for our second gig. Is that freaky? Usually don't talk about Lea Salonga and then twice within half a day. Maybe it's a sign ... of what I have no idea. Hah!
After that, watched Nicole's tape. It's a scooby doo episode with the Big Bad Voodoo Daddies as guest stars! Tres cool!
Hmmm ... I'm thinking of recording the RW duets and the BBVD song onto MP3. Don't quite know how to do it yet. Will have to think about it. If anyone knows how to, email me!
Next, time to put on my toolbelt and assemble grandma's 3-drawer chest. Did that in about 2 half hours and then it was time to rush off for the gig ... that's after a quick shower, change of clothes and make-up. I think I made it in record time getting to Lot 10 - the venue of the gig. I thought I was going to be late but I was just in time. That's due to the really smooth traffic on the way to Lot 10; all thanks to the long weekend due to Hari Raya, which marks the end of the fasting month of Ramadhan.
Went to a Muslim friends house for 'Open House' after the gig. Had yummy Hari Raya food cooked by his wife - am told that she owns a restaurant at a really trendy part of town. Ate, talked, laughed and then tis time to go home.
Listening to the Royal Crown Revue that Danny burned for me on Friday. Good stuff.
Today marks the last day of Streetvoiz's last christmas performance. I'm glad that all the christmas programs are over and done with. It's was tiring work ... now all we have to do is sit back relax, wait for the money to come in and for the Selangor Phil's christmas party the day after me birthday. There is a little thing that some of us from Streetvoiz will do on Sunday after the party. Some children's party at some place ... suppose to get together on Friday to practise some songs for that but Friday's my birthday so I told them I might not be able to attend practise ... I'll try my best. A birthday dinner just won't be a birthday dinner without the birthday girl would it?
I have no idea when the tradition of having a family dinner on someone's birthday started. It sure isn't the norm as I was growing up. I still remember the pandan sponge cake, mom brought back from visiting a friend at the hospital who just gave birth, that was passed off as my birthday cake! How pathetic was that? Anyway, the whole of this year, whenever it's someone's birthday (family member only, of course), we go out and have a family dinner ... not that I'm complaining of course, just that ... it's not the norm! When in the world did we adopt this tradition?
Back to the what I did today stuff ...
Got up so early for a Sunday and couldn't get back to sleep. So, I gathered the two videos that two very kind soul mailed to me to watch them. Thanks Elsie and Nicole. I must have received Elsie's tape like two months ago or so ... just couldn't find the time to pop it in the video to watch ... that and that the vcr's in my parent's room and I don't like watching it with them ... my mom likes to add to the script ... this morning, they were at a cousin's wedding so their room was free and all sibs were still asleep. Hence, the perfect time to indulge in my dose of Russell Watson; that was what was in Elsie's tape. She'd kindly recorded RW's concert at the Taj Mahal (in America not India).
Fabulous concert! And there were duets with Lea Salonga and Natalie Cole. Just yesterday one of the Streetvoiz guys were saying that I should sing Lea Salonga songs while we were bumming and singing while waiting for the technicians to set up the mics for our second gig. Is that freaky? Usually don't talk about Lea Salonga and then twice within half a day. Maybe it's a sign ... of what I have no idea. Hah!
After that, watched Nicole's tape. It's a scooby doo episode with the Big Bad Voodoo Daddies as guest stars! Tres cool!
Hmmm ... I'm thinking of recording the RW duets and the BBVD song onto MP3. Don't quite know how to do it yet. Will have to think about it. If anyone knows how to, email me!
Next, time to put on my toolbelt and assemble grandma's 3-drawer chest. Did that in about 2 half hours and then it was time to rush off for the gig ... that's after a quick shower, change of clothes and make-up. I think I made it in record time getting to Lot 10 - the venue of the gig. I thought I was going to be late but I was just in time. That's due to the really smooth traffic on the way to Lot 10; all thanks to the long weekend due to Hari Raya, which marks the end of the fasting month of Ramadhan.
Went to a Muslim friends house for 'Open House' after the gig. Had yummy Hari Raya food cooked by his wife - am told that she owns a restaurant at a really trendy part of town. Ate, talked, laughed and then tis time to go home.
Listening to the Royal Crown Revue that Danny burned for me on Friday. Good stuff.
Saturday, December 15, 2001
Countdown to two dozen years of life - 6 days to go.
Hurrah! Finally installed the modem into my home computer and it works (evidence #1: this blog!). Have had the modem for two weeks now and didn't have a chance to install it till 2 days ago. After which I discovered that Windows 95 does not support USB ... the modem's USB. So, had to go get a USB supporting Windows that my system can handle. Got Windows Me. Installed that, installed the modem and voila ... Emp is blogging from home.
Yay! Placed the tinsels on the christmas tree and it looks great. Decided to end the search for perfect long dangly ornaments. Tinsels filled up the space ... although, I do think a few long dangly thing might make it nicer ... Stef says to stop placing more thing on the tree though, so ...
I'll try to stop.
Hurrah! Finally installed the modem into my home computer and it works (evidence #1: this blog!). Have had the modem for two weeks now and didn't have a chance to install it till 2 days ago. After which I discovered that Windows 95 does not support USB ... the modem's USB. So, had to go get a USB supporting Windows that my system can handle. Got Windows Me. Installed that, installed the modem and voila ... Emp is blogging from home.
Yay! Placed the tinsels on the christmas tree and it looks great. Decided to end the search for perfect long dangly ornaments. Tinsels filled up the space ... although, I do think a few long dangly thing might make it nicer ... Stef says to stop placing more thing on the tree though, so ...
I'll try to stop.
Friday, December 14, 2001
If anyone knows of a comment system that I could plug into my HTML please email me. Reblogger went down and had SnorComments for all of 2 days before it went down as well. I don't have a place where PHP or cgis can be placed. My only host is blogspot. So no code/file uploads.
Countdown to two dozen years of life - 7 days to go.
Christmas Search Continues
Friday, Dec 14 -- The search for the perfect long dangly christmas ornaments continues. It has been reported that Emp and Stef was spotted again at a mall last night searching for the final batch of christmas ornaments to be placed on their already, fine looking, christmas tree.
However, according to reliable source, they were seen carrying packages which were not from stores offering christmas ornaments. Further investigation found that the packages contained a bandana (Emp's) and some knickers from Topshop. They were also heard arguing over who gets to purchase the fab looking pink Friday knickers from Topshop but luckily, the matter was resolved with Emp graciously opting for the thongs so that Stef could have the bikini knickers.
As to their original objective of purchasing christmas ornaments, 'We will journey on and search for those perfect ornaments tomorrow and in another mall,' says Emp.
We at Empress Times would like to wish Emp and Stef the best of luck in their search. Hopefully they would be able to find them before christmas is over.
Christmas Search Continues
Friday, Dec 14 -- The search for the perfect long dangly christmas ornaments continues. It has been reported that Emp and Stef was spotted again at a mall last night searching for the final batch of christmas ornaments to be placed on their already, fine looking, christmas tree.
However, according to reliable source, they were seen carrying packages which were not from stores offering christmas ornaments. Further investigation found that the packages contained a bandana (Emp's) and some knickers from Topshop. They were also heard arguing over who gets to purchase the fab looking pink Friday knickers from Topshop but luckily, the matter was resolved with Emp graciously opting for the thongs so that Stef could have the bikini knickers.
As to their original objective of purchasing christmas ornaments, 'We will journey on and search for those perfect ornaments tomorrow and in another mall,' says Emp.
We at Empress Times would like to wish Emp and Stef the best of luck in their search. Hopefully they would be able to find them before christmas is over.
Thursday, December 13, 2001
Hey let's hop on the KPMG bashing bandwagon. Apparently they're causing a big hoo hah about a guy linking to their site without agreement. Oops! I've just linked them ... twice! I don't think I have an agreement. What will they do to me? I shudder to think. Read the whole article here. There's even a KPMG theme song. It goes something like this ...
Oh yes, you can read the email that was sent to the guy and the fella's reply here. Classic stuff!
"KPMG/We're strong as can be/A dream of power and energy/We go for the goal/Together we hold/On to our vision of global strategy..."
Oh yes, you can read the email that was sent to the guy and the fella's reply here. Classic stuff!
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