Monday, July 15, 2002

Finally saw Minority Report last night. Still can't decide whether I liked the show or not. High cool factor but ... I don't know. Something is keeping me from coming to a decision.

Saturday, July 13, 2002

ling finds me inspiring. Too bad none of my younger sisters seem to think that. I'm such a piss assed lousy sister.

Hey, ling, jason, you guys ever heard of MEETUP? I've sent in a suggestion to start a MEETUP in Malaysia yesterday so I don't know when it'll be approved or rejected. It would be lovely to meet up with you guys.

Ling, we have so much in common! I'd like to ditch the 'working' part and travel the world too. Work to me is a necessary evil!
While sending my sister off to the Equatorial earlier tonight, we had a long chat. To her it would probably have sounded more like a lecture but I was just telling her what the parental unit's fretting about.

Basically the whole conversation was about me asking her what she's planning to do, what she's up to. She's quit school and she didn't even complete a semester (I thought she had!). She says that she has approached a sportwriter for help in securing scholarships from Ivy league schools. I told her that it's kinda difficult to get scholarships from such schools as I've read on Princeton's (I think) site that they do not give out scholarships, especially sports scholarships. Then I hounded her on whether she's looking for any scholarships on her own and not just relying on the writer. I couldn't get a straight answer from her.

Conclusion was that she doesn't really know what she wants to do except that she'd like something that involves the study of the body - biology. According to her, she couldn't find any information about science courses, which is surprising cause that's usually the courses that I see when I surf University sites. I don't know what site she's been looking at.

I advised her to take a basic science based pre-university program so that at least moms and pops won't get on her case so much. She mooted the idea saying that she can't concentrate on studies if she doesn't know what she's studying for towards the end. Told her that the sort of pre-university programs that I've suggested doesn't really require her to have an exact field of study but she said that not how she works. *shrugs*

She also went on about how the family doesn't support her squash and her school achievements. It's true, my family's not big on compliments. But she knows this and I know this. All the sibs knows this so why does she have to be so sensitive about i? If they don't gush about your achievement, why get so dissappointed if the react as they always do? So, I told her not to get so worked up if they don't go ohh-ahh. I should know, after almost 25 years, I've had my share of non-compliments. All my ballet honours, my As in art have been for nought cause those are just not what they consider important. Not what will support you in your adult life. Not practical.

I told her that sometimes, you have to sacrifice things that you like to do (things that won't kill you if you don't do it) for things that your parents think you should do (that won't kill you either and that you don't really mind too much). Basically be practical. That's what I have done. If this had been an idea world, I'd have been a dancer and an artist. Since it isn't, I've given up art (something I found I don't mind just doing for fun) after Form 3 to take do the science stre am for the rest of secondary school and continued on to do computers in uni. Dance, I had a 6 years hiatus (due to financial dependence) until I couldn't stand it any longer and just had to take up some kind of dance form or I'd go mad. Latin isn't my first choice, I'd have rather gone back to ballet but cause my mom didn't like the idea, I didn't do it. Didn't want the cold war that might happen if I'd gone against her wishes. My sister says she couldn't do what I did. She can't just give up squash for she might regret it later if she had.

So, this made me think about what I have given up and whether I do regret giving up those things that I loved. I DO! I regret it a lot. What could I have done? I didn't have money to continue with classes. I was 15. Nobody hires 15 year olds. I had to give ballet up! As for art. How was I to study that if my parents won't pay for it? Malaysia does not have a scheme where you can just go to university almost free and then repay it after you've graduated and got a job. She has the luxury to continue squash cause she gets paid to play.

*SIGH*

This makes me feel ... I don't know ... like I'm conforming a lot a lot. Just doing what my parents tells me to do - almost. Sometimes I do resent my parents for not allowing my to do what I really want. But I've never told them that. I'm thinking that I have to take responsibility for it as well. I mean if I didn't want to do as they asked, they probably wouldn't have disowned me or thrown me out or anything like that. If I had taken a stand and really insisted that I really trully want to do it, the might eventually relent. I think I just did as they asked cause I could throw it back at them if I really hate what I do eventually and blame them.

*SIGH*

I would really like to, just once, do something life changing that they might oppose but I'd do it anyway. I might fail or I might succeed but at least I know it was all me. I made the decision. ALL ME.

Friday, July 12, 2002

puter's kaput

News from the homefront. Papa just called asking if I'd used the puter last night (I did) cause he can't seem to start it up today. The puter starts booting and the at percisely 27%, it hangs. He's tried it three times with the same result. Oh oh!

Must check it out soon as I get home.

Thursday, July 11, 2002

post-mortem

After ballroom class last night, went through the latin routine SM for a short, really short, time. He's trying to get a gig for us for his bosses sister's something. The last gig we had was slightly after the March competition ie. early April.

It was his birthday yesterday and some people at the studio bought cake and we celebrated.

Coach came in after most of us ate the cake (thank goodness!) and while we were looking at the pictures taken on Sunday. Lots of pictures on the ballroom couples and not too many on us latin couples. I think there are about three more with me in it - all pictures of my 'lovely' back and gorgeous hair.

So, the coach, while having his cake, started disecting our moves based on the pictures. Lots on the ballroom couples cause they had more pictures.

A few comments on our pictures:
- picture not included Need to straighten my arm when we're both facing opposite sites, back-to-back but with hand hold. Required to feel position of partners' body.
- refer top picture SM looks like he's doing social dancing while I was trying to go all out.
- refer bottom picture SM too straight and need rounder arms. Me, right knees 'rest' on top part of calf just below the back of the left knee plus don't turn out supporting leg so much.
- no pictures but seen by all My stumble after my spins! They said I did that twice but I only really remembered one. Even at that time I was thinking 'Shit! What the heck happened?! Did I put too much force in my spins? Did SM pushed too hard?' I couldn't figure it out at that time and I still don't know what happened. Maybe I just lost balance. Spinning and then stopping is one of my weakest moves. Why in the world did the coach put so many of them in our routine is beyond me. Anyone with tips on how to stop really solidly after spins, feel free to email me or leave a comment.

other matters
Got a call earlier from Anne. I've been drafted again to play squash for the company. She called to inform that training will begin in August and that the company games is on Oct 26 & 27. *sigh* Haven't played any since the last company games. Oh yeah! Most likes, I won't be playing number one ladies for the team this time. They've got Carrie Yeo to join. She was one of the national players way back when I was playing juniors. Didn't even know she was with the company but then it is a really large company ... I mean, group of companies.

Have been thinking again of just packing and going off somewhere far far away for a long long time. Maybe just work as a waitress somewhere and not have to think so much. Thing is, I don't think waitressing would pay for all the lessons that I still want to take. So, still need a good paying job. Location options right now are 1) get an Aussie PR and go back to Merlbourne (yups! still dreaming of going back!) and 2) get the working-tourist visa to UK, bum around for about 2 years then come back. Problem with option 2 is that I can only work 25 hour week. How am I going to get enough money for rent and food? Option 1, what if they reject my application? That would be a few thousand down the drain.

Really should do something about it rather than talk, think and yearn about it. I figured, I need at least RM25,000 before I can seriously consider those options. That would take me a few more months? A year?

If I really, really can't stand this company anymore, I'd say 'FUCK IT' and just resign. Bleeding company requires 3 months notice! Can you believe it?

Tuesday, July 09, 2002

Some pictures from the competition






P.S: Jason, so, was I the fat girl that you were laughing at during the Millennium?

Monday, July 08, 2002

Oh yeah! If anyone reading this (are there people reading this???), was at the competition yesterday? There was a jive song that they played and the singer sounded a lot like Scotty Morris of the Big Bad Voodoo Daddy. Can anyone confirm? Just curious.

Okay so, nothing seems to be up for the next few months. Time to catch up on my movies. Dying to watch 'Minority Report'. Time travel, one of my favourite topic, and Tom Cruise ... how bad can it be? ;) Also, that French flick at the International Screen, 'The Taste of Others' I think it's called. Sounds interesting. Hope it's still playing.
semi-finals ... again

Competition yesterday was utterly tiring for me and I'm only doing two dances; cha-cha and jive. Outcome wasn't too bad. Managed to get into the semi-finals of the Novice category. I'm happy enough ... at least we didn't get kicked out in the heats! :)

So, this time around, we had to dance in the heats, the quarter finals and the semi finals. As compared to the Millennium competition back in March where we danced only twice, the heats and then the semi-finals. Must try and get into the finals the next time round.

The day was great even though I was tired before we even began, thanks to the 5 hour hair braiding that I did for my hair which ended with me finally going to bed at 3am. Then waking up at 8am. *yawn* Dance floor was much better than the one at the Istana Hotel, although a little sticky but the Ballroom was much better at the Istana, looked grander, so was the washroom. Washroom at the Wisma PGRM (venue) is not very make-up friendly, too dark, dim. It's lucky that I brought a mirror along so the girls could put on their make-up at the changing room (a hall on the opposite side on the competition hall) instead of in the washroom.

Plenty of people = plenty of people watching opportunity.

My favourite watch would be one of the adjudicators. While all of the other adjudicators would be serious, standing still or walking about looking at the competitors, this one was tapping his foot, moving to the music and even once, I caught him mouthing to the song that was playing. :) One thing I noticed, where the other adjudicatos usually take turns in judging the competition, he judged almost all the competition save a few in the afternoon. He definitely judged all the competition in the evening. Poor guy. His feet must have hurt from standing all day. Well, at least he looked good doing it. He had on a beige jacket for the afternoon session and the a quick change into a jacket with mandarin collar with some sort of cravat? or kerchief tied around the neck. Very nice. Very stylish. Mucho yummy!

Anyway, Darren Bennett and Lilia Kopylova was back again. So, I had an eyefull of gorgeous dancing by the couple. Also had fun watching couple no. 1. I don't remember what their names were but they were really good too. I really liked their paso doble. Really strong and with brilliant dramatic expression. In my opinion, they did better in the paso than Darren and Lilia. However, I really like Darren and Lilia's samba. Boy of boy can Lilia really shake that hip of hers. Amazing.

Lastly, I do not agree with the decision of the judges on one of the finalist in the Amateur Latin section. It was an Australian couple and their dancing was not that great. Several of the other asian dancers were better than them but they got in. I don't understand it. Or rather I do but I don't agree with it. Judges here seems to like putting foreigners into finals no matter if the other asians were better. If the asians were not significantly obviously better, chances are, the foreign couple would make it to the finals.

But hey! What do I know? I'm only a Novice.

Friday, July 05, 2002

I like this. Go read it.

Thursday, July 04, 2002

I think I will stop tinkling with the PHP app now. Otherwise it's never finish. I keep going ... "hey! It'll be nicer this way wouldn't it?" and "hey! Let's try it this way." and "let's add this in". Keep trying to improve upon it non-stop. Guess I'm very much an end-user huh? Always asking for more.

As theendoffree continues on reporting all the freebie sites that are converting to fee-based sites, the real world seems to be going in the opposite direction. This past week, from out of nowhere, I received two freebies.

Freebie 1 - A translucent covered cheque holder and a JUMBO pen from my bank. According to the accompanying letter, it was an early bird gift. I don't remember being an early bird when I started that account a couple of months ago but it's great. Keep the freebies coming Maybank.

Freebie 2 - This one's totally unexpected. My colleagues and I were sitting at a kopitiam (coffee shop) at Taman SEA having lunch when all of a sudden, a hoard of females promoters barged into the shop with their white t-shirt tied on the waist to show some skin and tight black miniskirts and started to hand out something encased in a thin layer of plastic to everyone in the shop. The parcel was a pair of sunshades. It's a promotion for a beer. I don't remember which. Anchor? Heinneken? Carlsberg? I don't really drink beer so I don't remember which it was. Thing is, I was just talking to Vi from the studio about sunshades on Sunday, about how she's got loads at her office and I don't have any in my car, and here I am being handed a pair on Tuesday.

Wow! Easily pleased aren't I. Heh heh. If you only knew. But freebies are always great. So keep them coming. Can't wait to see what else I'll be getting next week.

Tuesday, July 02, 2002

Deadline's come and gone and I'm still not done with the codes. Well, not as done as I like it to be anyway. Need to do some cleaning up and then sort of test it.

I'm not very familiar with testing programs. Not sure what to test it besides making sure everything suppose to come out right and limits tests. All the stress test and performance testing stuff; I haven't a clue. Should try and get a clue though.

'sides that, practise still going on in the dancing front. Only five more days before the competition on Sunday.

Still not satisfied with my routine. I need to learn how to stop after spins!!! And there's so many spins in my routine? I don't know what my teacher was thinking when he choreographed it. I know it's nice/flashy to have spins but what good is it if you can't do it well?

Dress rehearsal for all competitors tomorrow at the studio.

Oh yeah, if anyone's going to the competition, scream for couple number 47 ... or was it 46. I think it's 47.

Friday, June 28, 2002

I'm gonna take a break from PHP codes for awhile.

Maybe for the rest of the day.

Can't escape if for too long though, have to finish the project by Monday and I have two more modules to finish.

Just that I'm going blind looking at code.

I'm Ctrl-S ing everything after I've typed something. Even in my putty screens and the I'd freak and wonder why nothing's happening to my screen even if I'm furiously typing in it. Even after I added a link into my template just a few minutes ago.

Break time.

Thursday, June 27, 2002

Empress, wipe that silly grin off your face!

:D :D :D

I can't help it. KB and the idiotic colleague is having a heated argument which sort of further instills my belief that Cambridge grads are a weird lot. Something about getting KB to draw out a complete design of the base table which KB says wouldn't help in whatever discussion that they'll be having. But idiot colleague wants it anyway for no apparent reason ... at least none that I managed to eavesdrop.

Talking to idiot colleague just makes you want to bash your own head against the wall just so that you have an excuse to excuse yourself. Bleeding head IS a good excuse ... right?

Wednesday, June 26, 2002





I am truly passionate.

Find your soul type
at kelly.moranweb.com.

You're excited about life and in touch with yourself and nature. Tell me, do I have this straight?

Virtues: You appreciate humor like none other. Puns might even spark laughter in you (TEHY R FUNNI). You seek adventure and connection with your surroundings. You seek friends who will not only share laughs with you but actually form a deep bond of trust and empathy beneath the surface. You look for adventure and courage in people, and variation is necessary to keep you under control. You see yourself as multi-faceted, so you need people who can see you in your many lights. You're constantly trying to figure yourself out while analyzing the people around you. Silly, silly people.

Aspirations: You can't decide what you want to be yet, but you know you want it to be adventures and interesting, with constant changes. You don't know what love will do for you yet, but it's competing with adventure for a place in your heart. An internal conflict has begun: can you be a successful worker, lover, and parent all at once?

Quirks: Noise of any sort is irritating when you're in the mood. Smacking gum, loud chewing, humming- it's about as pleasing as bodily noises. You dislike emaciated people because of jealousy and just plain disgust. You're a procrastinator but a hard worker, too.

Factors: You need constant attention and support. You're high-maintnence, but a great, reliable friend. Nature needs you and you need nature; it's helped thus far, so keep in touch with the outside world.

Future: Who knows! You absolutely need constant change, so vacationing is surely in the cards. Will you settle down or not? Love will find you eventually, as it does to everyone. Will you choose the sweet home life or the rewarding busy-bee life?

Tuesday, June 25, 2002

Email from an audience about 'Opera di Tutti Frutti'. :)

Thank you Mr. Yanagida.

DATE: Sun, 23 Jun 2002 07:45:40
From: Masao Yanagida <xxxxx@xxxxx>
To: xxxxx@xxxxx

Dear PSS Choir Members,

My name is Masao Yanagida.
I'm a Japanese businessman staying in Kuala Lumpur.
Last night I went your concert "Tutti Fruitti".
It is first time to see your performance for me,
I spent really happy time to enjoy your performance.
And also I'm very appreciate of your effort to practice that songs.
It is very good night and very good experience for me.
So thank you very much your great performance.

Actually I'm also member of choir group which so call "KL Japan Club
Glee Club".
We are male choir group in Kuala Lumpur Japan Club where is at Taman Septeh.
Next month, we invite Japan top male choir group "Shingetsu Kai".

Today, I'm happy to inform concert of Japan top male choir group
"Shingetsu Kai"on 14 July 2002 8:30pm at DBKL.
I think it is good opportunity to you to see foreign choir group
performance.
I believe it is good experience for your group also.
So please come to see "Shingetsu Kai" concert which is FOC.

Detail information is as below (taking from brochure):

SHINGETSU KAI CHOIR CONCERT
14 July 2002 8:30 pm at DBKL Auditorium

Shingetsu-kai is one of the most prominent male choirs in Japan.
"Shingetsu" meaned a new moon and is derived from the emblem of their
alma mater Kwansei Gakuin University.
Since the establishment in 1934, they have continued creating glorious
history.
Almost every year they give concerts or participate in choir
competitions in Japan and overseas, and have been a winner over many
tirnes.
They will present twenty over songs from their vast repertories ranging
from classical and folk songs to modem popular songs of Japan and other
countries.

free admission

enquiry:
tel. 03-5638-3001 (Ms. Yamamoto)

http://www.my.emb-japan.go.jp/jfm2002.htm

Received email ultimatum deadline for PHP project from boss.
"... we must absolutely complete by this Friday, OK?"

Who the heck are we? There is no we. There is only ME.

Well, unless you count weird cambridge grad guy who set up the client's PC more than a month ago as part of the team then sure. It's a we.

Monday, June 24, 2002

Concert - done.

Post concert party - done.

Next up - latin dance competition.

Also, gonna have committee meeting on Wednesday to see what we will be doing for the next half of the year for the choir. Any suggestions?

Trying really hard to finish the PHP project. I'm so sick of it.
New items in auditions.

Sunday, June 23, 2002

Cor! Freaking cool man! The Yoshi box is incredible.

Not that I'm a big gaming fan but ... shit! That is one cool box if I were!

Have been looking at some PC mod sites lately. Basically, I'm too much of a hardward idiot to try anything like mods but I'd like to be able to try it one day. Maybe just one of those casing mods to begin with, eh? Don't need to know too much about hardware for that and I love looking at nice things. Would be great to have a change from that ugly looking beige box.

I'm pretty sure that I can tell which is the casing although I'm not too sure of how to take it out completely. I have a HP Vectra and all I can do is slide the casing to the back to open it. Still trying to figure out if I can take it off completely.

One of these days.

Saturday, June 22, 2002

Drained ... I am so drained.

4 hours sleep everyday for the past three days is simply not enough for me.

I simply don't have the strength right now to do any coding but I have to cause I'm suppose to finish this app by this week. Have a feeling it won't be ready by Monday though. Unless I pull an all nighter tonight and tomorrow.

Have to go over to Sally's to talk to the caterer's people who are going to set up the canopy later. Which means I might have to miss the zoo party - birthday for the grannies & meeting up with visiting gorilla from Penang. I'll try and pop in after I've finished at Sally's. Hope it won't take me too long. Really need some R&R time.

Anyways, Tutti Frutti the past two nights have gone well. Crowd turnout was quite dissappointing but not to the extent that there were more on stage than on the floor *thank god!*. Last night tonight. After this the calendar should be free-er, at least with the extra-curricular activities. Work wise is still as packed.

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